I hope everyone had a fantastic holiday season. For some perhaps it was just a season, but you survived it and that can be a silver lining.
I can't believe it's been 4 months since I've made an entry. I've been so consumed in my own hustle that I've forgotten to swing back around to where it all started. My writing.
You're about to see more of it. I'm trying 30 days in a row of writing. I've been hitting a bit of a writing block lately and I'm hoping this maybe helps my find the keyboard again.
I think the big thing on my mind at the moment is just a massive amount of gratitude. Over the holidays I of course sent out the common "merry christmas" and "happy new year" texts and calls to people, but it hit differently this year. I'm not sure what the reasoning was but for the first time I was acutely aware of how many texts I was sending and how many I was receiving and it warmed my tiny little tin heart daringly close to the boiling point. Lol...
Jokes aside, it truly did. I was struck by the amount of people I have in my life that care, and I thought about how fortunate I was to have all these people who even though I don't see them physically nearly enough, they were showing up just for a minute and taking the time to think of me. I felt the love.
My mind immediately went to the flip side following that. I thought of all the people who perhaps don't have people to check on them or take the 2 mins out of their day during the holidays. Those who were going to be alone and not have a kitchen table surrounded by loved ones to have ridiculous amounts of food, and have to wear fat pants because they are literally putting themselves into a food coma. It broke my heart. It made me realize that next year I have to do better. Next year maybe the best way I can give back is by volunteering on Christmas day serving the homeless. I have a lot of blessings in my life. I can take the day to pay it forward.
So to those of you reading this, whether you sat alone, or were sardined canned into your in laws kitchen, I hope this next year brings you everything your longing for! And if you're someone who didn't get a text or phone call, let me be the one to say "Merry Christmas" and "Happy New Year"
See ya tomorrow!!