I think I need an alcohol hiatus. I'm a complete write off the next day, and really, I'm a write off when I'm drinking it. Nothing gets accomplished.
I'm a boredom drinker.
I'm a very all or nothing kind of person. So I'm either working at a 100 miles an hour or at a complete stand still. When I'm at a stand still it's almost like I don't know what to do with myself, so it becomes, "let's have a corona". That leads to "lets call some friends, lets have coronas with them", then inevitably it ends up in exhaustion the next day from being up so late, or a hangover because I drank too much.
I always feel guilty the next day because I know I could be so much more productive. My brain isn't firing so I'm not on my best game and work always takes the hit and I hate that. So does my wallet!
From what I've been reading in groups and news articles lately I am not alone. I don't consider myself an alcoholic, but it's a slippery slope and I think I could become one very easily. I have that type of personality. Like I said, all or nothing. So I think, at least for the next little while it needs to be nothing. I need to break the boredom habit of grabbing a beer because it's something to do. It's time to raise the bar....just not that one!
Anyone else teeter on the edge like I can sometimes?